Thursday, May 22, 2008 | 3:46 PM
haiiz... cnnt stop crying... darling... my heart really very pain.. i juz nw nearly suffocated... cried till cnnt breathe.. rily... ARGH! i promised u nt to talk to any guys.. but i cant.. really cnnt.. i juz feel like hurtin myself now.. and get into hospital.. and nvr wake up until u cme back... pls god.. let time pass quickly.. i dun wanna be emo.. dear. i tried callin yr sis HP.. u said she got auto roamin.. but when i call.. the said number nt available.. wad does tt mean..? does it mean u purposely dun wanna me to contact you, or does it mean tt yr sis didnt bring her HP AGAIN? haiz.
i cnnt take it. if u dun wan me to suffer i really need to talk to a guy.. haiz. sms-ed Jiamin 20mins ago.. she didnt reply.. i cnnt take it.. went to call Randy. nvr pick up. haiz. called his hse. also cnnt.. now i at Wenyi's hse.. i know she & Hannah very concern for me. kept tryin to cheer me up.. but i rily rily cnnt take it! 1 day without him and i'll be emo-ing as if i were in hell.. i dun wan to leave anyone.. i dun wan any1 to leave me.
i kept tryin to be happy. to keep myself occupied.. but when i'm too tired and stop, i juz realised tt i'm thinking of you and you're not here to contact me.. i cnnt even see you, hear yr voice. u know hw hurtin is it..? i know u've tried yr best. i know. but when u talk to me ytd and 2dae, u sounded as if u were lookin forward to goin overseas. mayb u juz wan me to stay happy. i dunno.... haiiz. i'm sick of everytin.. i shdn't even hve a stead in the first place... i dunno why i'm writin this.. i'm rily feelin hurt, hurt.. so hurt.
had roller-bladin and kick-boxing 2dae. time passed quite fast... haiz. had a last chat wif dar b4 he left.. haiiz.. dun say.. ARRGH!! @@%@$^#$! i cnnt stop!!!! haiiz! then when kick-boxing the time, i vented all my anger on it. rily rily damn angry.. aft tt i felt damn shiok.. haiz. rily emo..
l0ve. our 4th month anniversary is 2 days away..
live ,
with dreams
H e a r t h v o g u e n . B S
