♥ dreamer's life

Wednesday, July 30, 2008 | 9:15 PM

raindrops keep fallin on my head~ haiiz.. tt's hw i'm feelin now.. i feel that the whole world is pressed against me.. i cnnt lift up my head to face everytin.. no courage, no skills, no nothing. i dunno why. ppl say i hve PMS? i dun tink so. mayb some things are left better untold. i dunno.. haiiz. lets talk abt 2dae..

reached school early. went to find deardear.. cnnt find him. went to sit wif Felicia they all for awhile aft tt.. then when walkin to the parade square, saw deardaer. went to talk to him fer awhile. haiiz.. 8+ then sang national athemn and stuff... went to dunno whr aft tt. geog lesson Ms Chee damn assh0le. then deardear so fed up.. haiiz. then i cnnt cheer him up.. yea. i tt time reaslly controllin my tears. i nowadays can control my tears better. yuppps.. good i think.

helped deardear copy lit scripts during MT class. teacher go scold me cuz nvr listen. cheated fer the spelling. heck care. eng continued copying.. damn tired. headache gettin worser. haiiz. sci had test. didnt really know. set 10 marks fer target..

aft sch Wenyi, Hannah and deardear went to my hse to practice the lit thinggy agn. 2moro wil be the showdown. Hannah must nt laugh T.T if nt i wil laugh.. hehs. Hannah and Wenyi keep hiding my bear and monkey. aft practicin ard 4 rounds, we slacked al the way til 6:30+. fetched deardear hme aft tt. reached hme ard 7.

bathed finish the time family just cme back. Dad said " today who come?" i said same as ytd luh. then he said "make sure nt only Weijie cme, if nt i slap yr face". and i was damn freakin pissed. liddat only then wan slap ppl's face? orh. okay. VERY REASONABLE. next. got one white towel near the washin machine. he go ask me "the white towel whose one?!" nabeii.. like i do something wrong liddat? u tink wad? i go bathe wif some1 huh? yayaya. i bathed wif Weijie?.. haiiz. then next. he go keep my bros clothes. then felt something. he thought pillow. then he pull out. turn out to be the bear deardear gave me. then he screamed and shouted at me. say wad everytime play play play. haiiz.. i've enough.

i dunno wth is cmin to this world now. wth are the ppl thinkin. why cant i understand them why cant they understand me? why cant everyone try to be more reasonable and think b4 they speak? how do u know if its nt gonna hurt ppl? hw do u know it wont only be the person whom you're scolding be affected? why are they so selfish? why cant i be more happy? why is time passin so slow when i want it to be fast and so fast when i wan it to be slow?

sometimes i just find life so difficult to live i just want to die. sometimes i just upset and disappoint the ppl whom love me and whom i love. i dont wanna see you sad. i dun wann u to worry. but i wan u to worry. i dunno wth i want. i want u so much yet i dun feel you're there. i cherish every moment wif you but please. dont force me to do things.. some things hve to happen by nature, dun force me to do things which YOU WANT. i really dun understand. i think i just love you so much to let you go, even for a second.

mayb i shd just express all my feelings here next time.

live , with dreams

Sunday, July 27, 2008 | 9:09 PM

Daddy's heartful dinner! =D

heyyas :} damn siians nahhs. whew T.T well. went out to "do project" with Wenyi, Hannah, Pristine and deardear.. hmms.. met Wenyi and deardear at ard 10, really slacked till like 1 or 2 lahhs -.- l0ls. cuz we spent heck loadsa time on decidin wad kinda material to buy fer the geog project -.- met Hannah and Pristine later on, then went to park to do music project. didnt know wad to do so just slack ard T.T like waste alot of time ehhs T.T l0ls. went Pristine'se hse aft tt T.T

got dog seh T.T then aft tt Pristine's hse the dere got one bloody big dog lahhs. wth -.- her neigbours lors. stupid one. then i damn scared cuz the dog like barkin non stop and damn scary luhhs. then nearly like, jump outta the window seh. -.- then i dunno why the stupid deardear go hold me so tightly -.- siao one. then end up we walk past there 2gether. then the dog started barkin agn -.- then i got so bloody scared.. then i ran all the way lahhs -.- then stupid deardear go grab me like shyt. stil wan force me walk past -.- then end up we both trip over each other. l0ls. then fell down lahhs. gosh lahhs. i felt so guilty then cry T.T i also gong my head on the ceiling hor T.T l0ls. so guilty D: sorry deardear D:

live , with dreams

Saturday, July 26, 2008 | 10:46 PM

ell0s ^^ finally bloggin :} damn siian uhs. stupid deardear stil outside hvin fun bowling -.- haiiz. dunno wad time he callin me later neiis.. errm... 2moro gonna meet they all to do geog and music thinggy. damn siianz. next week will be packed i tink.. err.. yeaps. 2dae morning woke up at 9+ bcuz i keep slpin. aft tt MRT-ed al the wat from Pasir Ris to Boon Lay -.- damn siian. then met Dad then went to a ice cream factory's warehouse sale.. bought damn loads of ice cream =D the potong ice cream one for 20cents nia ^^ outside is 80cents each :} l0ls. and yay~ got membership card but needa w8 2months fer them to send to my hse -.- kns. l0ls. total ard $80 seh. didnt expect it to be so much =D but its worth lahhs, cuz its really loadas ice cream ^^

went grandma hse to celebrate grandfather's bdae aft tt. had durian ice cream and nw the taste still in my mouth T.T l0ls. siiann.. tt's all bahhs.. i damn siian lorrs. 2moro or later then i pack everytin fer 2moro bahhs T.T hope some1 doesnt oversleep 2moro -.-

live , with dreams

Friday, July 25, 2008 | 9:53 PM

some people just dont get the difference between love and friendship -.-

haiiz. bloggin bloggin. deardear went off9 for more than 10mins liao. say wanna sms me but end up nvr. and i damn curious abt wad he tryin to say in his blog. wad something bad gonna happen? is he gonna create sumtin bad or he just thinks tt something bad's gonna happen? i dun understand everytin.. haiiz. but its okie. used to it le. ytd was our 6th month. yeas.. didnt celebrate or wad lahhs. yupps.. nth else. buaii.

HAPPY 6TH MONTH DEARDEAR!

I LOVE YOU :}

LONG LAST X33

live , with dreams

Sunday, July 20, 2008 | 8:58 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! ^^

morning went to Miramar's hotel to celebrate my birthday :} almost everytin go there leiis, go alot of times liao cuz the chicken wings and porridge nice T.T but i tink their food nw deproved liao :x hahahs. then afternoon cme back.. went to play bball then blablabla. had a misunderstandin agn. whew. at night cut cake, and Dad gave me like more than 1 quarter of the cake T.T Mummy gave me money T.T haiiz.. fer wad seh... T.T gtg soon neiis. say a few main points first..

I finally understand the importance of hvin a family; the warmth and love i receive from them. then endless protection they give me.. haiiz.. stil got one thing i want say but i fergot -.- gtg liao.. blog 2moro or sumtin bahhs :}

live , with dreams

Saturday, July 19, 2008 | 10:49 AM

WHEE~ got my both swapped items ytd :} plus Wenyi's Mango tanktop ^^ & deardear go buy one bigbig monkey fer me T.T l0ls. cuz tt time i say JM's one cute T.T hahahas. TYTY EVERYONE!! ^^ yay~ i'll be turnin 14 2moro =]] every year on my bdae.. i would tel myself,

hey, i'm one year older. then i would tink of the past.. how i evolved frm a tiny tiny thing into sucha big thing now :} l0ls.. kinda touchin seriously, sometimes i will tink abt the future; wad will lie ahead of me.. whew T.T still long long way to go ehhs. dunno hw long the Earth can last though. hope can life to the maximum :}

live , with dreams

Monday, July 14, 2008 | 7:07 PM

yoohoo~ actually wanted to blog just now.. but nvm :} l0ls. so i blog now lors. i tink only Jiamin read my blog. l0ls.. hmm. yeayea, past few days emo alot. just bcuz of that pathetic cube -.- one day must demolish every single cube on Earth.. l0ls. hehs.. erm. i tik nth much to blog lors. 2dae is my worst day i think. i cried more than 10 times, includin ytd night. yupps. it's meant to be a secret. but i tell u all u all also cnnt do anytin -.- l0ls. & only Felicia realised i'd been cryin last night.

deardear also can tell i guess. just that he tryin to make me happy or sumtin =]] sometimes i think that.. Life is just a illusion, sometimes i think it's a dream, sometimes it's a nightmare. haiiz.. Humans are created really differently u know =/ sometimes i emo i can think about the animals.. then the history then to us humans. i dunno why i tink alot too -.- well. every1 got their own weakness and strengths. i guess i hve to accept tt weakness of mine bahhs.

birthday's 6 days away;
i love my friends. i love Weijie too. sometimes its so diff to please 2 ppl at the same time, knowin one of them will get hurt. in the end, both parties got hurt. Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.
Life is just a chance to grow a soul.
And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.

You have been my friend. That in itself is a tremendous thing. I wove my webs for you because I liked you. After all, what's a life, anyway? We're born, we live a little while, we die. A spider's life can't help being something of a mess, with all this trapping and eating flies. By helping you, perhaps I was trying to lift up my life a trifle. Heaven knows anyone's life can stand a little of that. (By: E.B. White in Charlotte's Web)

live , with dreams

Tuesday, July 8, 2008 | 5:28 PM

WHEEE~ damn long nvr blog le leyys :} anyone miss me?? ^^ l0ls. okiies. i always thought no one would ever read my blog if i didnt update, so was very surprised to see Jiamin tag there =]] hahas. siian luh, school nowadays very boring -.- and i've been thinkin alot abt the future leyys. why liddat -.- l0ls. uhhh.. nowadays hvin lesser and lesser time wif frens and deardear liao. damn boring luh. 2moro if need to make up fer library then i go lors T.T siian neiis. Monday holiday also not our fault T.T we shdnt make up wad :X l0ls.

but i tink dun hve lahhs. haiiz.. the library got one project fer Teachers' Day T.T then we were supposed to pick the teacher to do a sketch book on about them lahhs, but only do on one paper -.- l0ls. then Felicia one was Ms Phua lahhs. damn easy -.- cuz they 2 very close. l0ls. then mine neiis -.- Mr Andrew neiis. l0ls. If Andrew no prob lahhs :x but the Mr Andrew!? l0ls. bo bian luhs. cher say will give CCA points =D hehh. l0ls. hmm.. birthday cmin soon! ^^

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