Wednesday, July 30, 2008 | 9:15 PM
raindrops keep fallin on my head~ haiiz.. tt's hw i'm feelin now.. i feel that the whole world is pressed against me.. i cnnt lift up my head to face everytin.. no courage, no skills, no nothing. i dunno why. ppl say i hve PMS? i dun tink so. mayb some things are left better untold. i dunno.. haiiz. lets talk abt 2dae..
reached school early. went to find deardear.. cnnt find him. went to sit wif Felicia they all for awhile aft tt.. then when walkin to the parade square, saw deardaer. went to talk to him fer awhile. haiiz.. 8+ then sang national athemn and stuff... went to dunno whr aft tt. geog lesson Ms Chee damn assh0le. then deardear so fed up.. haiiz. then i cnnt cheer him up.. yea. i tt time reaslly controllin my tears. i nowadays can control my tears better. yuppps.. good i think.
helped deardear copy lit scripts during MT class. teacher go scold me cuz nvr listen. cheated fer the spelling. heck care. eng continued copying.. damn tired. headache gettin worser. haiiz. sci had test. didnt really know. set 10 marks fer target..
aft sch Wenyi, Hannah and deardear went to my hse to practice the lit thinggy agn. 2moro wil be the showdown. Hannah must nt laugh T.T if nt i wil laugh.. hehs. Hannah and Wenyi keep hiding my bear and monkey. aft practicin ard 4 rounds, we slacked al the way til 6:30+. fetched deardear hme aft tt. reached hme ard 7.
bathed finish the time family just cme back. Dad said " today who come?" i said same as ytd luh. then he said "make sure nt only Weijie cme, if nt i slap yr face". and i was damn freakin pissed. liddat only then wan slap ppl's face? orh. okay. VERY REASONABLE. next. got one white towel near the washin machine. he go ask me "the white towel whose one?!" nabeii.. like i do something wrong liddat? u tink wad? i go bathe wif some1 huh? yayaya. i bathed wif Weijie?.. haiiz. then next. he go keep my bros clothes. then felt something. he thought pillow. then he pull out. turn out to be the bear deardear gave me. then he screamed and shouted at me. say wad everytime play play play. haiiz.. i've enough.
i dunno wth is cmin to this world now. wth are the ppl thinkin. why cant i understand them why cant they understand me? why cant everyone try to be more reasonable and think b4 they speak? how do u know if its nt gonna hurt ppl? hw do u know it wont only be the person whom you're scolding be affected? why are they so selfish? why cant i be more happy? why is time passin so slow when i want it to be fast and so fast when i wan it to be slow?
sometimes i just find life so difficult to live i just want to die. sometimes i just upset and disappoint the ppl whom love me and whom i love. i dont wanna see you sad. i dun wann u to worry. but i wan u to worry. i dunno wth i want. i want u so much yet i dun feel you're there. i cherish every moment wif you but please. dont force me to do things.. some things hve to happen by nature, dun force me to do things which YOU WANT. i really dun understand. i think i just love you so much to let you go, even for a second.
mayb i shd just express all my feelings here next time.
live ,
with dreams
H e a r t h v o g u e n . B S
