Thursday, May 21, 2009 | 8:36 PM
arghs im sucha letdown.. really am.. i failed once and twice, no matter how many times i fall ill never be able to stand up again.. why is the reality so harsh.. why humans need to study mans. arghs.. sometimes i do envy grown ups, can have the freedom to enjoy life (at least) and pamper themselves. zzzz. i seriously dont mind everyday go work, go exercise and end of the day. its so much better than destroying yr own brain cells, doin things u dont even like.. my results are deprovin like mad, and i still cant control my life properly.
i take a look at other ppl from other class, why they can do so much better than me and study so well.. i dont mind studying not well. i just wanna get into JC and just bloody chiong outta my studyin life. freak sia. how many i supposed to get into a JC with amaths failed, and alll the other subject borderline pass? and wtf. my oral is like worst. chinese one can get 14 over 40, break record sia. lowest confirm. main paper 28 over 70, i really owe my parents alot. they had so high hopes for me and i can only crash every single hope they dreamt of. freak. my english sucks alr. first time main paper fail. ahhh hw many i gonna handle all these stress, doin things that i really really hate.
live ,
with dreams