Wednesday, July 15, 2009 | 10:58 PM
i'm sick, tired, frustrated with my life now.im sick of everything, sick of wakin up so early, makin my own breakfast, washin the plates, going to school, tryin to remember notes, tryin to understand wtf the teacher is teaching, planning the day beforehand, wasting time in school studying, thinkin of ways to have more money, thinkin how good it will be if i didnt had to study, carryin books to and fro, puttin up with people's faces, thinkin of what to do aft sch, thinkin of how much time ill waste doing things, thinkin what to eat, gettin angry over eatin the wrong food, blaming myself for not exercising, blaming myself for spendin too much time on certain things, blaming myself for not being able to balance my life up, blaming myself for neglectin myself and puttin others first, wastin the whole day out, emoing , wasting time to travel home, folding shirt, washing plates, checking my email, not having enough time to use com, reachin home so late, not working out, not having the ability to study, not being able to concentrate, gettin frustrated over little things, packing my school bag, worryin about the next day, gettin rdy the sch uniform, worry about dd, thinking of the future, thinking what others will think of me, not havin enough slp, not concentratin in class, restless sleeps at nights, haunted dreams surrounding me.so many other stuff on my mind right now. i feel damn uselesss. i dont wanna study anymore. i wished i can stop right now, just go get a job or bloody peaceful life, with no one disturbing me. except my dearest sweetheart and my friends. we shall all live together, happily ever after on a peaceful island. i wanna stop at poly, stop right there, get a job or start my own business. i dont wanna waste my time al the way to the top for absolutely nothing. i cant even make it, i dont even want it. arghs. my brain's killing me... i want the time to do things i like to do... i wanna stop this habit of non stop thinking thinkin thinking. it really kills me, im dead.
live ,
with dreams
H e a r t h v o g u e n . B S
