H e a r t h v o g u e n . B S
"I believe that the human body is the only machine on the face of the earth that wears out and breaks down from not using it enough.”

i know what a failure i am, be it a good friend, a friend, a daughter, a student.. even a girlfriend... im tryin to grab hold of reality, to make myself not to live in the dark again, to not let anything come in between us.. i just wanted to understand you more, wanted you more for myself. i just wanted u all for me... it my fault from the start.. all these years ive been living on earth i was someone who couldnt control her emotions, who cries only at the slightest things. as time pass by i thought i'd found a friend i could rely on, be there for me. first time i got backstabbed and disgraced in front of everyone.. second time i made so many mistakes.. 3rd time i let it slip by... something that i've atually realised now is how fragile i really can be.. how i tend to make so many mistakes at one time, trust the wrong people and neglect those much more important ones.. it hurts to see the person u love so much doing things for someone else and not you.. and not there to listen or cheer you up.. ive come to rely on myself.. thats why i didnt wanna get closer to any1 else.. but in fact.. i really need some1 to be my best fren, to listen to me and cheer me up.. that day wont happen i assume.. im very terrified of the future.. im very scared.. im no longer brave enough to overcome all these.. why.. why must people not cheer me up when i cry? and despise me with those eyes? even though those who i love the most..... how can they just sit there and not do anything.. am i sucha cry baby... its not how i wanted it either. i do have a choice, yes.. but i feel alot better cryin it out.. but the pain's stil not goin away.....

live , with dreams